Depression

well it's been a long time since i've written and things have only gotten worse....i ended up finding a teaching job but not in a school district but a charter school so i'm not making anything close to what i should be making....i did take a pay cut but not enough to feel a difference...well on the other note though my husbands job is not working for us..i mean he is getting a paycheck but it is nothing...
WE ARE NOT MAKING IT...i have already done a voluntary repo on my car so that cleared up 600.00 a month in a way...my parents gave us money to buy a car cash so now i am gonna pay my mom 250.00 a month till it's paid..that won't take long and i should have her paid off by income tax...we are just not making it...i don't know what else to do...
a couple of weeks ago we did some garage sales and luckily made 400.00 or so which helped us greatly with food and catching up on the utility bills etc. we did two garage sales two straight weeks even though in our subdivision your only allowed one every three months...
well like i said i have just been so busy with my new teaching job etc. i also volunteered to head up the cheerleading program here at school so that keeps me busy as well...
i don't know what else to do...we got behind on our light bill so i did a workout program so i just paid that today or else they would cut us off and now i am negative 140.00...than this week i HAVE TO PAY THE HOUSE..i'm so scared we will eventually lose it...we don't even have enough for our basic bills which include, house,cars, light, water, food, gas...the other day my little 4 year old was telling me that she wanted to go buy clothes but i couldn't because i know we don't have money....she needs tennis shoes as well but this past week we just bought my son tennis since he didn't have any only sandals...my husband had found a part time job for after work but that didn't last...i know i can get a part time administrative but than my husband says what about the kids that i will be away from them to much...i'm just so pissed,scared and so much more...i don't know what else to do...i don't have anything else extra to sell...i'm just tired and drained...